i don’t learn, it doesn’t get easier

i guess i'm a little bit crazy for ever thinking that the kind of love i've seen guys feel for girls is possible for someone to feel for me. i guess it's a bit confusing when i remind myself over and over that it's not happening, but continue to let myself fall into the same…

i’m too sad to let you go

It's been almost a month now and I can't seem to shake this feeling. Every time you text me I get annoyed, but I can't bring myself to tell you to stop. We didn't work out, we weren't right for each other, and I know that's okay. But why does it feel like my heart…

i showed up at your doorstep and you left me in the rain

I just drove 45 minutes each way to deliver all the stuff of yours I had. I drove there because you told me now was a good time, but when I got there you refused to come to the door. i showed up at your doorstep and you left me in the rain I got…

your name on my phone screen can still knock me on my ass

Damn... i really mean it... damn. I was doing so well. I got back in the gym, I went out with my friends on the weekend, I haven't cried in almost 6 days, but then it happened... I was in the middle of facetiming one of my best friends and your name popped up. You…

i’m lucky, oh god i’m so lucky

lately i've been taking a real interest in reading. or blogging. drinking lots of tea. or listening to john mayer with a nice candle lit. and while i've taken interested in all this "me time," i have come across two books that i think everyone should read at some point in their lives (or at…

maybe it’s not even about me

I was walking out of class today when my heart stopped because I saw your name on my phone's lock screen. And the feeling has yet to surpass. Because I'm not totally sure why you texted me in the first place, you didn't want to fix things, but you said you miss me. You said…

you don’t get to play the victim here

We met, we fell for each other, we spoiled each other, we loved each others families, we brought out the best in each other... we fought, we made each other miserable, we brought out the worst in each other. We talked, after fighting... I cried, you kept quiet. We agreed that this wasn't working. We…

i’m sorry that what’s best is also the worst

I'm tired. So tired. I can't remember what it's like to be genuinely happy. I wish it never had to be like this, but it is. I wish you never had to hate me, but you do. I wish you would reach out to me, but you won't. I'm sorry, so damn sorry, for so many…

it was good, so good, until it wasn’t good

I'm so stupidly heartbroken. I'm so crazy to think that he feels the same way I do. I don't even know how things were able to get this bad... a week ago we were sleeping next to each other whispering i love you into each others ears, and today we aren't even friends on Facebook anymore.…